Concomitant with my separation from the job, I've begun to focus a bit more on myself.

I'm able now to dress as I like more often and try harder not to slip into the drab motif I present to the world when I feel obligated to look "normal".

There are certain supplemental treatments beyond the basic hormone pill I take every day, and I've not used them in quite some time. I won't go into specifics, because I don't want be a party to someone else self-medicating without a doctor's supervision. Now, I've adjusted my regimen to include those others again - because I want to align myself more closely to the recommended pre-operative treatment plan for transsexuals. These are things that I've cleared for my use in past discussions with medical professionals, so I'm not playing Russian roulette with my health.

I'm not saying I'm now more inclined to pursue gender reassignment surgery, but I need to do whatever I can to bring myself into congruence. I'll always be "on the fence" to a degree, but I can reduce that feeling by committing more to the side that most accurately represents whom I know myself to be.